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welcome home & fleetwood mac
Being a “homie” I took the opportunity to go on Welcome Break at Talton Lodge, Warwickshire. Briefly described as: photographers, yurts, tipi’s, rounders, laughs, brews and booze. It was good to take time out of the day to day grind.
But the thing I most wanted to blog about was how being part of this community makes me learn more and more about myself. When I went on the workshop last year I discovered that it was OK to actually be me. So what if I’m an old head on young shoulders, buy sensible shoes and prioritise books over clothes? That’s who I am.
Going on this break made me realise another thing: I need to stop the comparison. Let me explain.
Welcome Break is exactly that: a total break to do whatever you want with no agenda. The first day some of the group went off out into the rapeseed field with camera’s in hand. The sun was high, the sky was blue and creativity was written all over it. I don’t know why but I got what I call ‘the fear’. The fear of not being good enough as everyone else, the fear of making mistakes, the fear of judgement. Immediately I revert to being the kid in school who wants to fit in and be liked. It was only when I confided in a couple of others that I wasn’t sure whether I actually wanted to take even a single picture that they said they either felt the same, hadn’t even brought a camera or in previous years only taken one shot. Others were happily creating gorgeous images.
That’s what great about being part of this community; people have either been there, going through it or have some advice for you.
I know the Fleetwood Mac song: ‘Go your own way’ is about a break up, but for me it’s a mantra. Sometimes when I feel the need to go with the majority I just hear that chorus in my mind and it reminds me that I can go with my gut instinct. If I make a mistake the world won’t stop turning and I’ll learn from it.x